I moved out of my apartment today fully. Cleaned the walls, scraped the bathroom floor, did the whole nine yards. I even cleaned the carpet with a carpet cleaner I got. It is interesting that so much is coming within this move, it's not just one old apartment to another one. My reality has been put before me this week, a perspective that I have not had in three years and a feeling that I know will get better with time but for now I must sit, wait, be patient, and hope.
When you are found so deeply in what you do instead of who you and you no longer have what you do life gets really tough. You begin to see that your self worth comes from something it should not. You find that your inner core and the peace you thought you had is not your true state. It's not that you have been untrue to the world around you or even to yourself but you were unaware. The first step to wholeness in this matter is awareness. I am headed up the right path it's just a long one maybe, or maybe it will be short. Of course my desire is the short one but I refuse to miss out on this journey.
Thank you to the small voice inside of my soul that speaks lots of truth into me during this moments. I am thankful that I have a God who really deeply cares about who I am becoming.
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