define me not

longing to find peace in a world that seems like the wind shifts every other second. the wind shifts you in ways that you never thought you would go. you understand at certain points and move forward and then others you step back and crash. you hear voices that are familiar and you are comforted. the voice of a friend who sings over you in the midst of chaos. you hear peace, joy and the love of someone who believes in you. when nothing and no one seems familiar, when you can't seem to understand why you did what you did a voice pipes in and reminds of you his calling. he says to you who you are and speaks to the deepest parts of you. he says that you are loved, cherished, and above all chosen to do great and amazing things beyond your capacity. you find hope in the fact that he defines you. you can't see it or touch it but you truly call feel him and hear him. you feel crazy sometimes when you seat before the invisible in sobbing tears wondering if you will be answered, comforted, or maybe even heard. you trust although sometimes you can't trust anything, you desire to see clearly the way you are and the way others are. your soul craves to belong, to fit somewhere, to understand, but to live in each moment regardless of how your circumstances are. you again remind yourself of what you are defined by.